Some puzzles are better left unsolved !!!

Koi to hona chahiye.....life me jise sirf hum dikhe....Baki sari duniya jaye bhad me.... Just like jay and aditi.....
Famous....sorry not so famous dialog from movie Jane tu ya Jane na...

Being lonely and alone is two different thing..... Loneliness felt when you want someone desperatly who never existed in ur life.....

While feeling of....being alone comes with effect of nostalgia.....someone was there in past and you are missing that person.....

It's the worst thing when both attacks you togather.... Music ...book....work....smoke ....nothing works to get rid.of.these thoughts......and most of The times it would create snowball effect of thoughts.....which is worst....

Only two....shots of vodka or takkila only helps....these things seems stupid at times but.....its only thing people do choose as it is easiest way......

But very few grew strong to get rid of matter .....by fighting multiple battles alone.....and ....this do happens.....I will do it for sure......thinking too much is not issue....its really Usp of person.....and it really helps if one can manage to direct thought in positive direction.......

So all those who are going through a bad phase. Hang in there! There's always ALWAYS a light at the end of the tunnel. Just remember it's not your fault and that in a relationship it takes two to tango. If you tried your best to make it work, then hats off to you and your commitment. It's very difficult to find people who are willing to communicate and sort things out in a relationship, so be pleased that you are in that clan of mature people who value relationships.

Well that's it I guess! On a positive note, don't judge things by other people's experiences. It need not happen to you. Things need not get so messy. It's my destiny and I'm embracing it with open arms.. because of this - today, I am a happy & healthy person (touch wood ;) ). I rather be single than be stuck in a very VERY wrong relationship.We have only one life.....but if we do of right once....is more then enough......

Quarter Life Crisis

Finally Day is Over.....had few small parties with cake "cutting" and little bit of "pasting" too.....Yes it was my birthday today and i am almost quarter century old now.....whole day ....or say whole week i have passed like a hell...damn confused what to do and what not to do...... finally one friend came to rescue and shared a “gyan” of "Quarter life crisis" and shared experience….. it seems true.....i have been told that i need to spend some time with other activity.........and I have opened blogger application in my cell phone for preparing draft for the my new post.(it's an other activity for me you know).

So what exactly Quarter life Crisis is ….

• · It can be felt when you start feeling insecure and wonders where you will be in a year or two, but then gets scared because you barely know where you are now.
• ·   It can be felt   when your most of the relations are continuously follow complete cycle of relationship again and again.
• Unknown -> seems to be Known -> Known -> Very much known -> known -> seems to be Known ->Unknown / Re-known 
• ·   It can be felt   when you start doubting that friends whom do you thought you were so close are really a closest ones and you do not realize that with this continuous toggling of mind you are confusing them too. 
• ·   It can be felt t  exactly when you start missing the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all. 
• ·   It can be felt   when you want to be independent but suddenly the idea of stable life and logic of “54321” strikes to your mind. 
• ·   It can be felt   when you are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life; you feel alone and scared and confused. 
• ·   It can be felt   exactly when you desperately want someone to listen to you. It doesn't matter either the issue is selection of gift or frustration of office you just wanted to be listened.
• ·   It can be felt   when you have your broken heart in hand and continue thinking that how you have loved someone and what damage that love has done to your life. 
• ·  It can be felt   when you have tried hard enough to convincing yourself that you didn't want to be tied down to any person; Now suddenly you have moments of self-doubt when you wonder if you waited too long and let someone special get away. 
• ·   It can be felt   when you love someone but maybe love someone else too, and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person! Random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic and you always messed up with everything. 
• ·   It can be felt   typically when you feel that you always get what you wants but never be able to preserve it. And always miss your ex or y.... :p
• ·   It can be felt   exactly when you go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. 
• ·   It can be felt   when you worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just likes to be a contender. 
• ·   It can be felt  typically when we are in our best of times and at the same time in our worst of times too, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out, But never succeeded. 

And finally  you feel it  when ....you spend 3 hours of your birthday alone at coffee shop writing down a blog post.

List is too long and i can write this whole night but completing post by thanking the friend for sharing experience , thanking the 3 full mug of coffee to keep me awake.... and last but not least "CCD" ..." a lot can happen over a  coffee....." for not disturbing me... :)

Finally it arrived : Monsoon

Koi to ....Yado main.. Palko main ...bundain liye....

The biggest disadvantage of not having anything stored in your draft is that when you want to update your blog and don't know what to write about, you are stuck. Typically on Monday morning on the way back to office after refreshing holidays. Busy times are back again. Monsoon season is usually a relatively hectic for those who are in Mumbai or in southern states. I happened to discuss it with a friend who has been there since last two years. When I look back to my hometown, it feels that monsoon slows down the business, but hell we "royal kathiyawadi" people do care about it. Weird it is, but it's true. People still loves this romantic season of rain at its best.

Unlike the Mumbai or other south state monsoon in Gujarat has its own importance. Very rare chances of heavy rain and those few occasions are invaluable which could turn down lectures in college or school. I love to work all the time, but these days, I miss my free time when I can just spend some time with myself with paper boat in child hood and writing or reading in my adult hood. 

When i was small i used to play different games with group of my friends. Those games which were typically made for monsoon. We had games for each and every  occasions. Then i grew up...(grew up watching these typical Bollywood movies). I used to have dream  replacing some hero in song which filming this romantic season of rain. We had songs for each and every occasions too. Little bit drizzle, sparkle of water and typical smell of this "Bhini Mitti". Children to youth and elders too.. have their own reason of celebrating this rainy season.

Since I am good at multitasking, I talk to people while working. But I miss reading, and writing. I miss blogging too. When I get a bit of free time, that time I don't feel like logging onto blogger and write something instead I would like to note it down in my cell.

Ah I sound lost again. But who cares, I am too happy to care about it (:p). I am happy that I finally able to write something, I am happy because I am so busy with work that I won't get time for anything for next few weeks. And this happens to be my birthday month too. I will be turning a year older.

I visited my hometown and uncle's farm house last week. It was a fantastic long weekend. Very much rejuvenating and well deserved. I am right now at a time when I can't take a vacation when I need to. But somehow I have managed it (and I can do that again as I have my own practice). Time spent in this 4 days has boosted energy level so high that I can spent next few weeks by just cherishing those moments.

That's about it for now. There are many things to write about on my mind, but I am not in mood to write about those. I would like to keep those in my drafts so I need not to pick random topic next time though I would love to do it, again. I would be back soon, till than enjoy this romantic season of rain.